I watched some pornography just now that had a woman being rather boringly fucked by a group of characterless men.
I clicked on it because I wanted to see a girl get weed on, I didn't think I'd ever want anybody to pee on me until about half an hour ago in the bath-tub when I poured warm water over me from a bubble bath bottle and imagined it was this dom guy I'd been seeing off the internet that I've just ended it with, peeing on me.
I immediately had to hop out the bath and masturbate over some piss porn.
What got me off the most is how sexist and degrading it was for the lass having it happen, she was pretending to enjoy it but really obviously wasn't -which made it all the more arousing for me, I was fucking myself with my vibrator and imagining I was her and it was their cocks in my mouth and cunt.
What kind of person does this make me? Freud might say it's cos I had a feminist upbringing and am rebelling against it through my sexuality by watching misogynistic porn. But I've loved seeing women being hurt since I was as young as I can remember -and I grew up in a really happy, stable, none-abusive environment.
I've had fantasies about being violently raped. I've never told anyone that. This anonymous blogging is amazing.
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